I am so sorry that people who you are supposed to trust and confide in aren’t there for you. I’m sorry that people hurt you mentally and physically. That is not fair to you and you have to know that it is not reflection of who you are or your worth. I am so sorry for all your losses and all the broken parts that have happened in your life. Broken parts happen and they hurt and they hurt, but eventually we have to remove the broken pieces and try to heal our wound. I’m not sure your exact situation but please know there are many options for you. Find a support group that will be there for you, it can be friends, online chat rooms, messaging your best friend from the 5th grade, try to find those people who will be there for you. not all the people you love are going to leave, I can promise you that. you will find your people, you will find people that build you up and let you blossom every time you hit a cloudy patch. you will find the people who can relate and that you can confide in and trust. you will find it, please keep looking. I wish you the best in your search and I am sending you love and luck. @alacarte